Of being someone’s everything. She looked up to me. She enjoyed my company. She needed me. She wanted my company. She clung on to me and it felt amazing. She had and still is calling me her “anh”. But, does it hold the same meaning as it did back then? She had made me feeling important. She even gave me a nickname and it’s cute! First, she sent it as a text and then she used it in person. She mispelled it, but kept it mispelled because it had looked funny. My nickname for her is Ahnnie. Her excuse? Anhnie looked funky haha. And it was alright in my book.
But it sure does suck to miss something that isn’t all there anymore. It’s just another chapter in my life that is hopefully just put on pause. But in all reality, I just don’t want to admit that she’s gone metaphorically. She’ll always be my friend, but what we had, what we both enjoyed so sinfully as it was, is gone. Would I call it “forbidden love”? Certainly not, but I’m a defiant one. Would others? Probably.
It was too painful back then to keep on fighting.
Jailbroke my iPhone to the newest iOS5.1.1
reinstalled all of my jailbroken apps along with my appstore apps. Found this new app called downloader, gives me unlimited skips with pandora AND it downloads songs of my choosing. I gave it a test run on the drive home, it was great. Downloads quickly and the song is right there! Now I don’t have to hope for my song of my liking to come up, I just have to open downloader and BAM!
I think I’m too hyper for my own good right now. I had four poptarts from work and two redbulls. The smaller redbulls. Two of the bigger ones would be crazy! Fuck, my mouth is watering for something, but I don’t know for what…. I hate it when that happens. Where you’re craving something, but don’t know what exactly. Anyways! I’m an uncle!!! I think I’m going to have a horrible morning. Oh boy. Might as well enjoy it while it lasts. YEAH!!!
Is born!! As of 10 last night. My mom was saying there was some correlation between my birthday and Khanh’s with Khuong’s and Bao Chau’s. No clue how it made sense to her, but I have a niece!!
Mom, dad and little brother are going down to Sharp hospital where both me and Nam were born to visit Khanh and her little family of James and Alexis at 2, but I’ll be at work from 11-3 and most likely bumming around the house. So I won’t make it. Blah. Oh well, momma said they’ll probably be home in the next few days, so I’ll just wait til then to see the newborn. Khanh’ll probably make me take care of her anyway. Sure has been a long time since me and Nam have taken care of our nephews. Our youngest one is now 8? Yeah.

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